It started with a beating of my heart
A slow pulsating feeling in my brain
It continued to my fingers and toes
And numbed them so they had no where to go.
It begun to take over my body;
Injected me with sorrow
It was pain
Pain about my future,
Pain about my past
Pain about my present
Pain that it wouldn’t last
Pain about others
Pain about myself
Pain wrapped me in his arms and swaddled me like his baby
Pain riddled me with his words and imprisoned me with his promise
Pain rubbed all I couldn’t have in my face and stung me with the reality that it could attack me any day!
I fell in love with pain and we are married to this day!
ESSY